Why is it that I always seem to create blogs whenever I'm supposed to be studying for an exam. My last one (dismissthis) was made the days before a Math 100 (Calculus) exam. And now, it's almost 1 in the morning and I've only barely scratched the surface of the coverage for the Psych 135 (Sensation and Perception) exam on Wednesday. Instead I'm writing here.
Why a new blog?
I've been stalking my friends' blogs for quite a while now, be it on Multiply, LiveJournal, Blogspot, what-have-you. And I always feel a touch of jealousy at how freely they can express themselves, without fear of judgment. I want to be able to do that. My old blogs are all mostly empty, because I never think that I can write as well or as profoundly as my friends, that the things I say will sound stupid, silly, shallow, or all of the above. This doesn't help me at all when I get the occasional urge to write down a few thoughts, to unload some of the burden from the inside of my head onto the universe. My Starbucks planner isn't enough of an outlet. That's really just a record of the things I do and need to do per day. I hardly even go back to previous days to read what I wrote. The entries in there are rather boring, to be honest.
It's also significant to mention what Ruari said when I told him about this new creation of mine. He said that my fear of judgment is something that I have to get over. And in order to do that, I should start by not being the one to read and judge. That's actually something I've been working on for a while now. I guess you can say that that's one of my new blog's resolutions.
What happened to dismissthis?
That blog was a failed attempt to do all of what I just said above. If you check it out, you'll find mostly memes, personality test results, and typing test results. In fact, I think that's where I'll post all of those from now on. This blog will be purely my writings. But I'll probably also throw in a few photos, quotable quotes, articles, and songs here and there.
Also, the name of the blog does not really apply to me anymore, or at least I'd like to think it doesn't. See, it was taken from the different attachment styles that we took up in Psych 150 (Theories of Personality). I found that I have a dismissive-avoidant attachment style (read about the different styles here), which I so wanted to change. Well that was almost two years and one relationship ago. I'd like to believe I'm more securely attached now. Hee.
Oh, and I do also have a blog on Multiply. But Multiply is way, way more public than I can handle right now. Every time I post an entry there, I am simply too conscious of the fact that it will be available to my 300 something contacts. Which therefore leads me to censor my words, defeating the purpose of writing anything in the first place.
Why talknerdytomee?
It stems from a rather private joke between me and Ruari. Although it is quite applicable to my personality as well. As I wrote just today in my essay for my St. Luke's application, I've always loved learning, having developed an affinity for books at age four. At age six I read my mom's pregnancy books, taking in with gusto all the gory images of labor and all. As a huge fan of the Sweet Valley series in grade school, I always identified more with Elizabeth than Jessica. And I've never been a party girl; I prefer quiet, meaningful conversations to parties with dancing and loud music. So I do think I'm quite the nerd, and nerdiness is definitely the way to my heart.
(Oh, and also, talknerdytome wasn't an available address, so I added another e. With how OC I can be about grammar and all, it just shows how much I really wanted that address. Haha.)
Why now?
Because I don't want to study for 135. Haha, but more than that really. I feel like I'm in a very exciting time in my life. In just a few months I will graduate from college with a degree in Psychology. Afterwards I will enter medical school, the thought of which occupies me day and night. So I think now is a good time to start documenting my life in a more substantial way. And when I finally do get to med school, I'll need a place to vent when everything starts becoming toxic.
I think that's enough of an introduction. And it's also time for me to sleep, given that tomorrowshould will be spent in major study mode.
Before I forget, Kung Hei Fat Choi to everyone. Bring on the tikoy!
Why a new blog?
I've been stalking my friends' blogs for quite a while now, be it on Multiply, LiveJournal, Blogspot, what-have-you. And I always feel a touch of jealousy at how freely they can express themselves, without fear of judgment. I want to be able to do that. My old blogs are all mostly empty, because I never think that I can write as well or as profoundly as my friends, that the things I say will sound stupid, silly, shallow, or all of the above. This doesn't help me at all when I get the occasional urge to write down a few thoughts, to unload some of the burden from the inside of my head onto the universe. My Starbucks planner isn't enough of an outlet. That's really just a record of the things I do and need to do per day. I hardly even go back to previous days to read what I wrote. The entries in there are rather boring, to be honest.
It's also significant to mention what Ruari said when I told him about this new creation of mine. He said that my fear of judgment is something that I have to get over. And in order to do that, I should start by not being the one to read and judge. That's actually something I've been working on for a while now. I guess you can say that that's one of my new blog's resolutions.
What happened to dismissthis?
That blog was a failed attempt to do all of what I just said above. If you check it out, you'll find mostly memes, personality test results, and typing test results. In fact, I think that's where I'll post all of those from now on. This blog will be purely my writings. But I'll probably also throw in a few photos, quotable quotes, articles, and songs here and there.
Also, the name of the blog does not really apply to me anymore, or at least I'd like to think it doesn't. See, it was taken from the different attachment styles that we took up in Psych 150 (Theories of Personality). I found that I have a dismissive-avoidant attachment style (read about the different styles here), which I so wanted to change. Well that was almost two years and one relationship ago. I'd like to believe I'm more securely attached now. Hee.
Oh, and I do also have a blog on Multiply. But Multiply is way, way more public than I can handle right now. Every time I post an entry there, I am simply too conscious of the fact that it will be available to my 300 something contacts. Which therefore leads me to censor my words, defeating the purpose of writing anything in the first place.
Why talknerdytomee?
It stems from a rather private joke between me and Ruari. Although it is quite applicable to my personality as well. As I wrote just today in my essay for my St. Luke's application, I've always loved learning, having developed an affinity for books at age four. At age six I read my mom's pregnancy books, taking in with gusto all the gory images of labor and all. As a huge fan of the Sweet Valley series in grade school, I always identified more with Elizabeth than Jessica. And I've never been a party girl; I prefer quiet, meaningful conversations to parties with dancing and loud music. So I do think I'm quite the nerd, and nerdiness is definitely the way to my heart.
(Oh, and also, talknerdytome wasn't an available address, so I added another e. With how OC I can be about grammar and all, it just shows how much I really wanted that address. Haha.)
Why now?
Because I don't want to study for 135. Haha, but more than that really. I feel like I'm in a very exciting time in my life. In just a few months I will graduate from college with a degree in Psychology. Afterwards I will enter medical school, the thought of which occupies me day and night. So I think now is a good time to start documenting my life in a more substantial way. And when I finally do get to med school, I'll need a place to vent when everything starts becoming toxic.
I think that's enough of an introduction. And it's also time for me to sleep, given that tomorrow
Before I forget, Kung Hei Fat Choi to everyone. Bring on the tikoy!
hey minds, congrats on the attempt! :)
ReplyDeletei'll be following. :)
-christa
Thanks, Christa! :) Miss you!
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